The heat has returned, and I cannot say I welcome it in the least. Kansas heat is so heavy and makes it hard to breathe.
It's Monday, my day off. I mostly just sit around and feel sorry for myself. I thought about going to the movies, like a repeat of last Monday, but I sat on my ass instead. I need motivation. Inspiration.
But how do you get out of a heavy funk?
The only thing that I can get motivated about is faith. I need to learn to quell my mind long enough to meditate. I've always been shit at meditating, but I hear it helps. Who knows?
All I know is I'm dreading work, and I need a drink. I drink too much and work too little. I like my job. It can be a lot of fun. I'm just so fucking eternally lazy.
Sometimes, I can't stand myself.
I should learn to find the beauty in things. To be thankful for what I've been given in this life.